of hopes and dreams

i recently became depressed by how uninspired i am to blog. it is not even because i do not have the right words - it is simply because i am too lazy. this is precisely why i got depressed. laziness has never been an issue for me because i am powerfully disciplined. once i get down to doing work, i don't ever stop. this is not meant to be a compliment - it is just my character.

so i have been feeling so crappy down because i don't feel like blogging because i feel lazy. i have a nagging lazy bone that is aching so bad.

i have also been skipping meals because i feel lazy all the time to find a place to park my ass for 1/2 hour to move my jaws; so i don't eat a lot these days. even if i do, i dread it. life has been like a pile of chores waiting for my to tick off the to-do list. mundane and extremely bleargh.

but.

i have decided to do something about it. so i am blogging today because i want to make a statement to that periodic lazy bone in me - go away, you, you lazy bone, like seriously.

... wow, what a bad, boring, uninspiring blog post this is. i can't even churn out something funny to scold my lazy bone. laziness has made me so boring.

dang, i really need to get 'it' back.