please jab the darn toothbrush into the gums over and over again and then start brushing on it
no kidding, that is what i think about every.single.morning

i don't know whether it is the way i hold my toothbrush or whatever the reasons are; but i keep jabbing my toothbrush into my lower gum that i don't think there's a spot that i hadn't.

it kills me to tear my own tender gums but i cannot help it! I DON'T KNOW WHY.

i have always had problems with brushing my teeth. when i was primary 4 and in the morning session, i would rather brush the wall to achieve the "tchk tchk tchk" sound to deceive my mom than to really put it in my mouth to start cleaning my mouth.

well, i guess after i grew up i got a little more sensible and decided to really brush it - it is never top on my priority though i keep thinking it is. i spend a proportionately large amount of time brushing my teeth in the morning. like if i have 10 minutes to get ready, i would spend 40% of it on my teeth.

but out of the 4 minutes, 2 minutes is spend on wincing in pain and squeezing the blood from my gums because i cannot help but jab it over and over again and bleed till i feel faint every morning.

so, perhaps i should really just go without brushing my teeth for awhile. or maybe just go for another wisdom tooth extraction which will make it even more legitimate for me to stop brushing altogether.

go away, ulcers.
all the more, go away, TOOTHBRUSHES.

a 'sweet little one' afternoon
Mietta's @ Arab Street

it was my free day and i spent the very lovely afternoon with my friend, sharon. she never fail to impress me with her ability to seek out a quaint, artful place for our gatherings. and as usual, i enjoyed her choice for today - Mietta's @ Arab Street.

there is this 1-for-1 promotion going on for CitiBank card holders until next year which is seriously, splendidly worth the money if you like an italian-french afternoon. we completely indulged ourselves with lobster bisque for starters, penne vodka with prawns/ lobster with lemony cream sauce for the mains and of course, the wondrous tiramisu and vanilla panna cotta for desserts.

it was so good.

no kidding, but the unlikely generous (for an italian restaurant, really) portions made me so full i thought i was limping when i walked to bugis mrt. and when sharon started sharing her list of people she would love to bed, i think i swallowed a gulp of lobster that regurgitated up.

what really made the afternoon awesome was realizing how our friendship has surpassed time and proximity that we can still talk and laugh like old times. it was enjoyable reminiscing about the recent past and whatever memories that managed to surface from our subconscious. and of course, the lobster overload perfected it.

and oh, there was the book of HAPPINESS where we believe that we are the chocolate buttons on top of the GREAT CARAMEL PUDDING of Life.

we repeated that 10 times we were both dizzy with happiness,
and perhaps, overdosed with our quirky friendship.

[photos @ fb]

of friends

i have a friend who makes sure i study for COM207; she would check whether i have read my readings (yes, she tests my understanding sometimes) and she would scold me if she finds out that i do not get full marks for my quizzes.

i also have this friend who makes me type down all the notes during Literature and Madness because she feels so tired and wants to sleep. and because she sleeps all the time during class, i have no choice but to stay awake.

and there's a friend who stays so near that we try to go to school together every time. though we end up not meeting each other 3/4 of the time, she pretty much serves as my motivation to go to school because i don't want to disappoint her and make her a lonely soul.

oh, and i have friends who try to disrupt my studying plans by asking me out for a movie (because they are all working!!). but i am still thankful they remembered me; and as much as i was not able to make it, i was thinking of them all the time.

besides that, i have church friends who encourage me - though sometimes, such encouragement are build on merely sitting down together for a meal or laughing at jokes and the facial contortions of wenqi - we know we are pressing on together.

similarly, i am glad that i make a nightly date with God, my best friend, even when i am at the brink of dying from exhaustion every night. i talk to Him knowing that He is right next to me even as i lament about tiring days and boring lectures.

it is interesting how i think of my friends when i am in the very heat of mugging and feeling stressed.

of hopes and dreams

i recently became depressed by how uninspired i am to blog. it is not even because i do not have the right words - it is simply because i am too lazy. this is precisely why i got depressed. laziness has never been an issue for me because i am powerfully disciplined. once i get down to doing work, i don't ever stop. this is not meant to be a compliment - it is just my character.

so i have been feeling so crappy down because i don't feel like blogging because i feel lazy. i have a nagging lazy bone that is aching so bad.

i have also been skipping meals because i feel lazy all the time to find a place to park my ass for 1/2 hour to move my jaws; so i don't eat a lot these days. even if i do, i dread it. life has been like a pile of chores waiting for my to tick off the to-do list. mundane and extremely bleargh.

but.

i have decided to do something about it. so i am blogging today because i want to make a statement to that periodic lazy bone in me - go away, you, you lazy bone, like seriously.

... wow, what a bad, boring, uninspiring blog post this is. i can't even churn out something funny to scold my lazy bone. laziness has made me so boring.

dang, i really need to get 'it' back.

09/09/09
i woke up dizzy and feverish. felt a little hungry so i ate some leftovers from dinner the night before and concluded that it was spoilt so i stopped after 2 mouthfuls. took flu tablet and went for tuition; realized it wasn't really helping so i took another tablet. went for another tuition and nearly fainted from the mild overdose. sped home and fell unconscious for 1 hour. woke up hungry and my mom fed me nice, warm kimchi soup. went for third tuition and came home to the best moment of my day: watching Heart of Greed on channel8. and my OVE'08 people saved the day by bringing me out for a great supper and awesome friendship.

just like every other day.

when i got home at around 1230am, i decided that i need to find something from my tabl... what table? so, i started to clean up.