thus far.


have you ever had the feeling of relief when you know you have accomplished something major? i always have this feeling when i get off tuition (well, not for diancong though since he's so cute i want to give him money for having tuition with me). the feeling of such relief is unfathomable; euphoric but not exactly that but certainly happy, unburdened.

i feel this way not because i don't enjoy tuition, don't get me wrong. i absolutely adore going for tuitions because it is my responsibility and i know i have to do it and face those annoying kids who don't do their homework and would give you messy homework (yes, that is you qy). i absolutely adore it, really. no sarcarsm intended.

okay, maybe some. but it's not a lot.

i always feel that because it is very important to me. every single session of tuition means a lot to me in building up a rapport and trust between my kids and i. so, after every tuition session, i feel very relieved because i get off an intense 1 hour and 30 minutes where it is just me, my tuition kid and their messy homework which they scribbled just 3minutes before i arrive. not that i am the best tuition teacher around, but precisely because i am not, i know i have to put in my best.

i guess that is the same attitude i am going to bring to Cambodia tomorrow.

i have been planning and organizing this volunteering expedition (with my main comm, of course) for the past one year and tomorrow, yes, tomorrow is the trip itself. i am both excited and stressed at the same time that i feel slightly lunatic. and like always, i am not packed, not finished and not ready. but like how i am every tuition, the next 15 days will be extremely intensive and highly-charged because i want to give my best.

it sounds cliche, yes, especially to someone who has done these a million times. or like 2 times. but i am going to prep my brain tonight and tune to gearing up for cambodia.

and like every tuition, i would always heave a sigh of relief at the end and thank God for having gave my best.

stay with me in prayers!

rock away to cambodia!
(by the way, that's my friends and i in nepal while boating; we met a storm!)