to be or not to be, that is the question.
-Hamlet, by William Shakespeare
as Hamlet contemplates whether he should be alive or dead.

do you want to choose whether to live or not? a very interesting conversation sparked off with angie and est just this afternoon. it got me thinking if i want to ever have the decision power as to my living and my death.

well, it took me 3seconds to come a decision (2secs to stone awhile first and 1sec to breathe before answering) - no. i don't ever want this power.

one of my all time favourite writer, sylvia plath took her own life when she realizes the bleakness of life when ted hughes, her womanizing husband, could not stay faithful to her. she sealed all the rooms with towels and with her children sleeping in one of the rooms, she gassed herself to death. her limp body was found poisoned to its very bones.

little would plath know that 40years later, her son will follow her very decision, ending his own prematurely too. would she have wanted to live to let her son know that suicide is not an option? you see, both has forgotten to see that there is still hope in leading beyond their hopeless life if they had continued living.

i don't ever want to possess this decision simply because i would live such a hope-deprived life. i want to live every day knowing that i can still wake up to see aimee next sunday, or meet lola and dawn at nine-ish every tues and wed.

to be or not to be? is that even a question? God has given us choices on how to live our lives; the one thing we can do for Him is to live it well or at the very least,


continue living.