i told myself never to be like those bloggers who don't update for like 10 years and then come up with one entry about how busy and how unfree they are to blog. i, for one, am reflective about it. so, i guess i am not like one of those bloggers... in a sense.

alright, alright. i am not going to be delusional. i was busy, so i didn't blog.

my heart has always been thinking about what to write if i were to write a blog entry though. so as of now, i am quite lost for words because i have too much stuffed inside me. well, i guess you can see that given how random and how much i am rambling.

ignore me.

just 2 days ago, something traumatic and tragic happened within the ntu community. a triple-E student stabbed his professor and later, slit his wrists and fell to his death. this, in every way possible, shook me. first of all, i so happened to be around the fateful spot when he did so. i still replay the drama in my head where i saw the countless police cars and ambulance rushing in, the body bag and the horror at seeing the police cordoned area at a place i am so familiar with.

new reports have surfaced and more details given. but i have been quite reluctant to find out what exactly went wrong and what happened. why he will stab his prof and later commit suicide, i don't think anyone will ever be able to read into his head. i just feel that we should just avoid all that speculations and let it heal. it is already painful enough to know that one of our fellow ntu student were in a state so serious he would do such a thing.

but not all is blue. i am especially impressed with ntu's president, Dr Su Guaning for all that he has done this time round. he was the epitome of grace in the turbulence that rocked ntu on monday morning. his tactful and considerate emails was soothing for such a bad time; i am deeply touched by him and has all due respect for him.

well, life goes on. i still have 4 essays and 1 presentation to complete soon. got a GPA to pull up, y'know.