my name is sarah chang.
what, you too?

i just did the most nincompoop thing in the world.
i totally googled my name.

i know, it is pronouncedly loser of me to do so. but yes, i did it. well, you cannot blame a saccharine sweet, enormously popular and vivaciously lively undergraduate in need of self-assurance for doing that right? tell me about it.

what i was hoping to see from the search isn't anything note-worthy. just some "i think sarah chang has the most fantastic blonde streaks in the world" or perhaps "i aspire to be as fashionable as sarah chang who sported the most mercilessly chic look" or the least form of all "i think sarah chang will go down history". that's about all. no big hopes for my formidability.

you see, i really did see all those things. in fact, there were even crazier comments like i-will-die-for-you kind. it's all for sarah chang.

but it's not me.

turns out i am the namesake of a world acclaimed violinist, sarah chang. and it so happens she has fantastic blonde streaks, is insanely fashionable (woohoo, on the stage with her transparent violin with a tiny piece of black cloth wrapped around her, yeah boy) and yes, has already gone down history. i want to die.

googling yourself is not fun at all when somebody else has all the fun. so i tried "sarah chang ntu", "sarah chang sajc", "sarah chang renewal", "sarah chang cute", "sarah chang pretty" and everything else. what came back was "0 results for ---". how encouraging right.

so i have decided. the next time i google myself will be the day i become the prime minister of singapore, or maybe just the mother of 21 children to be realistic; or just to be a bit more practical, when i become a professor in ntu; or you know, maybe when i have graduated from varsity and written my thesis (then my name will confirm be on the web);

or maybe,
just never, ever, ever google myself again.

cui.