wheets, i say goodbye to tall buildings and pretty lights
i figure out i better drop an entry before i disappear for the next 2 weeks.

well, isn't that what i always do? disappearing from the vapours of the electronic waves and a webpage called blogger.com which is not even bookmarked in my laptop. it's probably a narcisistic concern that people reading my blog will realize my lack of updates and stop visiting altogether. it can probably be my way of leaving some remnants of my existence when i am not, in fact, around. or maybe it's just the polite sarah in me saying goodbye for the next 2weeks. you figure it yourself why you are reading this blog entry.

i want to leave some wise words before i leave. usually, i will share about what happened in my life before revealing the something that i have learnt; my way of passing the knowledge around. this time it will be a little different. it might be the lack of time (i am still packing my big bag for goodness sake!), but here, let me leave with you something that i have seen at least twice within 2days. and as i believe, nothing is ever coincidental. this quote is as thought-provoking for me as it was for many others before me. let it be for you too.

i forgot when was the last time i dreamt
sigmund freud said that we must have had enough sleep before we will go into the dream zone.

the past few weeks had been a whirl of a time (this is an extreme euphemism) for me. you know, in the past, you can easily talk to me right after i wake up from my sleep and you would understand what i said. but because i have been so dead fatigue, if you talk to me right after i gain consciousness, i'll probably tell you samantha went to school with john and she woke up feeling tingly and decided that she wants to kick a bag of potatoes without skin but with some cucumbers and tomorrow she needs to hug lollipop.

i know, i don't know what i mean too.

see, my time on my bed has been greatly reduced and i have even forgotten how to drool on it. every morning, i wake up not knowing how i fell asleep the night before. this is a sign that i am too... ...


this is one period of time i realized i am not a superwoman. i can actually fall sick from the lack of sleep. just over the weekend, i fell terribly sick hitting an all-time high of 40deg cel. my desperate attempts to salvage the situation - overdosing myself with vitC and downing water like a buffalo - helped what little to the damage that has already been done to my body. i was in straits so dire i had to call in MC for my temp job (i was already earning so peanuts and i had to get MC!!!) which means LESS moolah! to think i nearly went to work with a burning forehead and wet, sticky mucous!

i wouldn't blame anyone/anything/any particular CCA *tsk tsk* for my oh-so-perilous illness. it was probably the crazy schedule from the up and coming laos trip + the crazy camp that we stayed awake for nearly 2ohours for. but at the end of the day, the lesson i have learnt is neither quitting CCAs *hint hint* nor giving my body enough rest (this is however, ALSO important), but to stay close to God in spirit and in truth.

i was reminded that when we uproot ourselves beside the flowing river of life, there, our tree would blossom and bear fruits (God-forbid, i do not know the exact location in the bible). it is only when we park ourselves close to the Living Water that we can enjoy that joy from fruitation and true life. there's a lot of truth, in whatever aspect, in this verse and i believe i take away a little wiser from the fever and mucous.

but well, we should also learn to take care of ourselves. taking care of our body is one important lesson in life that we shouldn't attempt to learn from experience because by then, it would have defeated the purpose! but really,