satisfaction
as the year comes to an end (what a familiar way to start an entry), i am forced to recollect and reflect on the past 360 days. there were days which i have wasted, days which i have used wisely, days which i have enjoyed and days which i do not wish to remember (the next 5 days would probably go under this category because i would be so dreading 2008).

yet, if i would have the opportunity to lead it differently, i would not. i really would not change a single thing. i am, simply stated, satisfied.

frankly speaking, not everybody would feel this way. perhaps it takes too much courage to put it this way. what do i mean when i say i am satisfied with 2007? it means that i savour the mistakes i made in 2007. it means that i relish in the wounds of the hurts in 2007. it means that i accept the pains of life i underwent in 2007. it means that i embrace the negativity of 2007. it takes a whole lot of courage to say that i am satisfied with the past year. it does.

but isn't that how life should be? to be tossed and turned in the waves of torment and turn out stronger and wiser? i don't know how convinced you are when you are reading this (people say it too often that it becomes like the pet phrase for encouragement), but it could have been worse.

i know it is a little too dark an entry to begin a new year; it was an urge to remind myself in my writing how i have overcame and triumphed in the past 360 days. with the benefit of hindsight, i realized my limits have been stretched and capacity increased. it is this understanding that gives me immense satisfaction, and the immense courage to say i am satisfied with 2007.

yes, everything about 2007.

here's a fun breather for 2007

top 5 most satisfying things
1. earned my first pocket money (temp stints and tuition!)
2. roughed through uni, alive and slimmer (don't tell me even if i didn't)!
3. took up sec4/5 teens cell
4. finding more gifts and talent (yup, i found out i can sing after 19 years)
5. just being friends

top 5 least satisfying things
1. that i am dreading 28th dec (ntu results day, pui!)
2. not keeping up to the news (i actually cannot spell the name of the UN secretary-general - i just know it's a mix between bae yong joon and dong dae moon, YOU SEE!)
3. spending more time in church than home
4. losing contact with a number of good friends
5. just being friends