school.
I AM ON HOLIDAYS! fyi, it's my much awaited week long recess! after a long (exhausting, mind-boggling, exasperating, painful, agonizing) 2 months (it's the longest 2 months you would ever imagine), it's time to HAVE SOME FUN (and rest and sleep and exercise and MORE READING!). isn't it fun to have so much homework during your break? i am like so excited.

assignment.
i just submitted my (first ever, mind you) assignment over the week. AND IT TURNED OUT TO BE THE WORST EXPERIENCE! it doesn't make sense that nanyang TECHNOLOGICAL university doesn't have MICROSOFT 2007! it just DOES NOT make sense!

i could not print it at the library's computers at 1158 when the submission was at 1200. 'frantic' would be such an understatement to how i felt. so with perspiration and confusion, i rushed to my prof's office. and surprise surprise (or not), i couldn't print it there as well! in the end, i don't know who to be angry with; school or com or myself! long story short, i printed it out at 1210. this is not looking good. GOD HAVE MERCY!


gradual revelation.
i got B+s for my tests and assignments. wow, this has got to be the best epiphany ever; i just realised how average a student i am. wwwhhhatever.

audition.
yes, i was out of my mind to do this. renewal just held the audtion for the CD today and of the 500 people congregation, sarah had to be part of it. all i could remember for the audition in front of the 3 critics would be the trembling. nothing else, just the trembling. and probably the huge relief after that. weird that i don't remember the singing part when i was supposed to audition to sing huh. but i am simply glad that it is over. no more nerves! let's see what God has in place for me.

psychopathic
this has got to be my most relaxed entry so far. i am so not into tenses/grammar/verb-subject sentencing at this untimely hour of the day/night. but i am COMING BACK first thing in the morning to get my blog entry prim and proper, like how it should be (: my very first step to prozac days, if you know what i mean.

random.
1. aunty cindy just gave birth to japheth (joseph is a big korkor!) on the 22nd sept
2. we got hannah into trouble today.
3. i have to sell pigs! anybody? - $2 for 1, for my OVE to laos next year.
4. tuition has officially ended for girls (starting again on 18.11.07)
5. uncle richard is coming back!

giddy spells
just yesterday, my mommy cut off a piece of her nail and the tip of her index finger.

I HAD TO LIE DOWN WHEN I SAW THE BLOOD!

i shall spare you those vivid details (her index finger was so badly wounded, i think she bled half a cup of blood). thank goodness she heeded our advice (or nagging) to see a doc today. she's better now FYI.

shakespeare is a little better than i think he is.
this infamous author was a bisexual (i.e like boys, like girls), screwed up his last few years, wrote crazy happy endings (in a nutshell, over surrealistic) and created romeo and juliet (have you read that nonsense?!). but from today onwards, i will heart him till my last breath.

because he wrote Sonnet 130! hold your breath for the next 14 lines, because it is going to take your breath away!

1. woke up late
2. went to church
3. ate at blk 3
4. went to toa payoh to do my ove report



5. munched on nonsense while doing my homework



6. took my passport photo



7. met my lovely friends for dinner

8. pose for memories of my 19th birthday

9. read the newspapers

10. came online to rave about my simple birthday

you never know why a mundane day like this can be the best day i have had in weeks.

hide
i always think about the past
days before my birthday.
it ain't pretty,
nothing more than rust.

i looked at those photographs
time and time again.
yet all i can see are
nothing more than dust.

i was just a hideous farce
trying to become
someone of class; yet i am,
nothing more than warts.

and then something was done
to save me from those scars
i knew He was special,
but kept myself apart.

then something happened,
it was all too fast
i gave myself the cuts
it simply was a must.

to keep myself alive
to let those tears dry
to hide my naked front

slowly and surely
i began to find myself want;
want of all my trust

i was just a broken vase
exposed for the vast.

and then He came.
held me in embrace.
wiped away those shame.
gave me life again.

and now would i stand
to tell you what i gained.
His love, His truth, His Pain
the Pain He has paid

To give you hope a ray.

i tell this tale to you
not to say all i could
i tell this tale to you
to help you see the truth.

tomorrow is my birthday,
and this is what i would say;
i would love Him till the day,
my hour come to waste.


a dedication to my Lord, my God and my Father, the day before my 19th birthday.

the girl, the stage and her lovely God.
it isn't anything i would expect considering the tragic state of my rehearsals. how i got so disquiet about the performance the days leading up to sat. everything just hinted that i will make a fool of myself and completely (and downrightly!) ruin the efforts of the fantastic singers onboard the rocking ship with me. it was one of my worst experience on the stage, ever!

but i praise the Lord for how He used the little that i placed unto Him! the 3 services which i performed at, with the ORTV team of singers (bill, nancy, evelyn, stefanie, joseph and joni) was simply SENSATIONAL! (we received raving comments and great feedbacks!) don't take me wrongly, i am not taking the credit. the dazzling surprise plainly reiterates the fact that IT WASN'T ME AT ALL! it was God!

now that i have the benefit of hindsight, i saw how God brought me through those dark days (nights too) of rehearsals, and eventually to the day where i used what i have to glorify His name (now you know, sarah ain't a born actress).

all glory and honour unto my Father, my friend and my love.

it is official.i made it to the main committee of the Overseas Volunteering Expedition (OVE)! i was actually selected for Challenge UR Limits (CurL) as well, but argh, i have got to focus. well, our first meeting spells lots of fun and whacky cronies in the months to come! too bad the photos aren't in yet (secretary, you're late!), we have a pretty awesome team this year. the best deal? we got to plan for 2 trips this year! and we can choose the destinations we want (of course it has to go through the main comm panel). i am simply enjoying every minute of it.

i've never felt more focused in my life before. i am taking a major i am totally nuts about (the workload is screwing it up a little though), taking 2 electives (translation and linguistics) which i am utterly interested in, joined a cca i am sure i can excel in and have passion for and simply delighted and assured in my identity in God.

now, have you found your destiny?